PIRATES!!!

Well, Kurt and I ventured out with our nephews today. When asked their preferences Jackson and Jordan unequivocably wanted to watch Pirates of the Carribean.
So off we went, purchased our very healthy theatre pizzas, and settled down to watch 2hours and 30 minutes of Jack Sparrow staggering around.
Actually, it was very enjoyable. It has a great story line, enough laughs to keep you going, and left (most of) us ready for me. Despite its length, it held the attention of 9 and 6 year old boys!!
The only drawback for me was that it was quite gruesome at times, and I had to turn my head away on a couple of scenes. But, I suppose, what do you expect from a shipload of pirates!!!
All I can say is, "I want my dirt!"

Wedding Pictures

These are some pictures from the Wedding of Allan and Katie Eisses. Enjoy!

I have to admit

That I am feeling discouraged.

I realize that I haven't been trying half as long as many people, but I'm sick and tired of this. We did an IUI with clomid this month, and against all odds, I've been pretty positive. I think that is what has kept me going through what would have otherwise been a very difficult month. But my temps just aren't staying up there, and I know that this month isn't going to work.

Why why why why why!?!?!?!?

I really do just want to be like eveyone else. I want a little baby that I can call my own and take home with me at the end of the evening. I want to make my husband a dad- he's going to be such an amazing one.

Why did I get to be the one who has to be told to be patient, that my time will come, that I need to be happy for others, that it's just a matter of time, that everyone has their struggles, that God's timing will be perfect, that this is just making me into a better mom, that I need to embrace others' happiness, that I'm stronger than I think... Please God, I want a baby so bad.

Thanks for listening to my ramblings.

Linoleum

I just want to remind myself that if I ever decide to save some money on a house sometime down the road not to save it on lino.
I can't believe the amount of effort involved in pulling that stuff up. If you've done it before, you know exactly what I mean. If you've never done it, words can't explain.
Enough said.
:)

Discouraged

I've been feeling a little edgy today, and then I just realized that PMS is setting in. If that's the case, I'm not pregnant. It's been 27 months since we started trying for a baby, 8 months since we lost the one we loved so much, and the road appears endless from here.

I was being so positive, and then it all just hit me. Here we go again...

It's been a busy couple of weeks. To briefly outline:

1) We received the amazing news that we are going to have a niece or nephew on March 23, 2007. Grant and Brenna are expecting.

2) I memorialized the date that my precious baby was supposed to be born- August 8, 2006. I've felt a little since that I am able to move forward now.

3) We had our first true fertility procedure done August 10, and are waiting out the results (to come sometime around August 25)

4) My youngest sister got married to an fabulous guy by the name of Allan Eisses on August 12. The wedding was beautiful. I hope to post pictures before long.

5) We have begun the arduous job of removing our main floor lino and carpet for new hardwood floors. Let's just say that the end result better be worth it!!!

Anyway, that's my life in a nutshell. Feeling slightly overwhelmed, but very good. I love the feeling of moving forward!